Sometimes it feels like I'm not seeing the same person across the table from me. Dear Lord, help me. Your Train Wreck, M.D.
- Current Mood: lonely
- Current Music:Love the way you lie-Eminem ft. Rihanna
I find myself here in Tuscaloosa feeling very outside of myself. I continue to try and keep things of MS around to remember what I have left behind. I left behind half of my family. The other part is still three hours away. I am so far away from people I can be assured will always want me around.
Before tonight I had not really meditated since before Blade was born. I used my old visualizations and got some good stuff. After I made it to Avalon, I found Megan and her child there and Blade was there as well. We danced with my Granny and Dragon Mom and I told meggers that the next life we would find a way to let our paths cross longer than in this life. She smiled and agreed, we told each other I love you sister soul! Then after more dancing I had to leave I said goodbye to them and even saw my baby that I...lost. I was such a cool meditation!!
- Current Mood: calm
- Current Music:mystics dream-loreena mckennit
Well, its been fun, its been real Mississippi but here goes my new life.
- Current Mood: stressed
- Current Music:tumare darshan-deva premal
It's doesn't bother me much if its fiction....
Moving to Tuscaloosa will be great, once the first month passes and all these frightening first time bills are out of the way. I am praying for a cake decorating job with at least 9/hr so we can live comfortably!! Sweet Jesus, answer that prayer please!!
- Current Mood: worried
Well, we got an apartment at a frickin' steal of a rate!! Found Blade's school!! and Found places for me to apply for a job!! YAY!!! I am so excited!!
- Current Mood: excited
- Current Music:the saga begins